God's Acrobat

I think we will be hearing about Colleen Drew again, and often. That was a wonderful experience, getting to reunite her with her family. Her power is as much of a blessing as I have ever seen. The entire township of Scoville, all along the bottomlands of the river and all the way up into the farms, was lush and greener than a rainforest.

If she can do that, inadvertantly, what she will be able to do when she has control will be miraculous. Moreover, she seems to be a child capable of grasping the meaning of her gift. I have not had such a happy mission before.

It's a gift when God hands us the blessing and the meaning so openly and clearly. Faith should be infinite, but the spirit is weak sometimes. I'm grateful for His patience and his generosity in showing me these things when I begin to feel sore of heart.

Mein Gott, what is going on around here?

I should come out of my room a bit more often, yes?

For your own sanity, do not go to sleep shortly after having a bath. You will of course sleep wrong on your tail and in the morning you cannot do a thing with it!

Unless, of course, you do not have a tail. In which case you can just ignore me. I will be over on the sofa having a very bad tail day and watching the Cartoon Network, which is Bobby's fault (the cartoons, not the tail, though I suppose I could blame him for that as well).

I am really very silly today!

This was my first hurricane, and I pray to God it's my last as well. Despite the insanity surrounding us, I was awed and humbled by the courage, valour, and honor shown by all to all of the victims, regardless of whether you knew them or not. That was true charity, true agape.

Despite all of this honor (or should I say dignitas?) school persists. I've decided to start holding 'office hours' to help you with whatever problems you may have in Latin or German or even dancing, though I'm not sure how much coming to my 'office' (that is, my room) will help you there. So if you have any questions, or just want to talk about class, I'm devoting Monday, Wednesday, and Friday afternoons, from 3 to 5, to you. If you have other questions, comments, or whatnot, e-mail them to me at acrobatkurt@hotmail.com.

Want to kick the term off right? Come to the party in Sam and Kurt's room. Going on now.

Needless to say, this pick up went much more smoothly then the last, seeing as Doug actually came back with us.

Looking devastatingly handsome, I arrived with Betsy, who was her usual beautiful self, and met Doug and his parents. My own arrival to Xavier's was so unexpected and so....cataclysmic...that I had never really thought what my response would be if a team had arrived to ask me to come. It probably would've been much like Doug's. I love my family, and if I hadn't experienced firsthand the joy of living and bonding with people who really understand what it's like to be me, I would've wanted to stay, to stay in my comfort zone, to not take the risk of new people and a new place. But I know now that I was meant to be here, to be with all of you, from Sam and Ororo to Artie and Illyana.

Seeing his unease made me all the more glad that I've opened up to all of you. It also made me mischievous enough to give Allison an impromptu spin on the dance floor. You all are daily reminders of my blessings.

I'm beginning to get restless. I know I just said that I feel very at peace, and that is the truth, I do feel remarkably un-agitated, but because of my current.....stability, I guess, I want to *do* something.

Dancing? Dining? Gym? Movie? Anyone?

I've been very at peace lately. The past few months, well, maybe the past few years, have been so full of turmoil and change. My mutations manifesting more and more, changing countries and languages, moving into adulthood, being taken captive, coming here, reconciling myself to my family. I think of all the changes in my life over the past five years or so, and I realize I've been very pent up. I think most of my newfound ability to relax comes from being here. This may sound strange, but this is really the firstplace I've been allowed to be an adult. So much of your teenage years is 'finding yourself' and so much of that comes from being around others, something I've been denied my entire life. Of course I saw other people--or rather, they saw me--but really forming new relationships...I don't think I was given the opportunity before now.

For my first few weeks I had no idea what to do. Rooming with Sam, meeting the other people my age, seeing the students, I was so nervous, so scared. But when I went to visit my family they were so shocked by the changes they saw in me, they thought I had never been so assertive...I had never let myself be a true equal. I realized that I do want to be assertive, and I don't want to treat the rest of you like I'm a scared kid. I'm not. Well, I won't say I'm not scared that I'll look foolish in front of you, or make a mistake, or get hurt, but I'm willing to risk it. I'll risk it because you all are worth it.

Mass this morning was really nice too. I don't know if it was the weather, or just that I love the Feast of the Assumption, but I just felt energized. Also, I mentioned to the priest that I might be bringing some of you to talk to him, and so I guess if you want to talk to him, come with me to mass on Sunday. We'll go to the last one, so Father wil have time to talk to you.

And have a great weekend. Come chat with me sometime.

The past month and a half has been very confusing in many ways. Spending time with my family and with the circus has made me realize how much I had settled into life at the mansion.

I'm sorry I didn't get to contact you all, but we have constantly been on the move.

My mother has mixed feelings about my being here at all, but I know that I should be here with all of you.

Jemaine really didn't care if I came back or not. A few months ago, her apathy would've crushed me, but with all of you in my life, I think I have more to look forward to.

I hope everyone kept up their conditioning while I was gone, and I look forward to hearing about your progress and what's been happening since I was gone. Sam has been talking my ear off since I moved back in.

All in all, I'm glad to be back.

Combat, circus (you guys are fantastic!), school, and being around you all in general has made this one of the most exhausting months of my life.

And Allison didn't help by taking more of my precious time for sleep.

Though the adreneline *was* great...